Bump in the road.

I choose peace.

Life is pretty good! My kids are both doing great, I have amazing people in my circle, my relationship with Marc is on solid ground. Yes, my life is pretty damn good. But lately it feels as though I am slipping backwards. 

In the last couple of weeks, the past has reared its ugly head and barged right back in. Why? I’ve done all of this work and come so far. Then out of the blue, completely unexpectedly, I am sucked right back in. I can literally feel the change in my energy and my vibration. It’s just YUCK. I feel emotional, testy, ANGRY. I find myself thinking negatively and talking negatively. And it’s affecting other things in my life. I don’t like it.

Really, though, it’s not my problem. I may think it is, because I was inadvertently involved, but it’s not. As much as I want to, as hard as I try, I can’t make others see what I see. It only makes me crazy. I will never find peace. And honestly, it’s just not worth it. I have spoken my truth and I will continue to do so. Let the cards fall where they will. We all make our own choices, walk our own path, create our own karma. 

My happiness is my choice, my responsibility. I choose to move forward from this space I am in. I choose to continue working on the best version of myself. I choose to remember who I am and where I’ve been. I choose to be happy and leave the past in the past. I choose peace.

Life is so much better when you don’t hold on to that heavy shit that weighs you down. I let go once, I can do it again. This is just a bump in the road.