Best Day Ever.
My son, my boy, my first born, got married over the weekend. I’m not going to lie, for a while I couldn’t even get myself excited about the wedding. But probably not for the reasons you may think.
They are so adorable together and love each other so much. And I ADORE her. She makes my son a better person (not to mention she puts up with him, ha ha). They will give me beautiful grand babies someday.
So why couldn’t I get excited? I physically felt sick to my stomach when I thought about the actual day. There was so much in my personal life that I had to deal with. There were things and people and situations that I felt would be thrown in my face at the wedding. This was so wrong and made me so sad, to not be able to look forward to such a special day in your child’s life. I knew something had to be done, so I began to do some spiritual healing.
The woman who helped me with this is also a psychic medium. The very first thing she said to me was “you need to work on forgiveness, and your mom is telling you to hold your head high.” I immediately began to cry. I knew this. I just didn’t know how to get there. I promised myself I would work on this right up until the wedding. I was so afraid I wouldn’t be able to enjoy the day and the celebration. She gave me tips on how to work through this, telling me to “visualize sitting them down in a chair and telling them that you forgive them, and ask them for their forgiveness. Regardless of whether or not you feel you need to be forgiven.” This was very difficult for me, but I worked on it. Almost daily. And every day I felt a little bit better, a little bit lighter.
Friday morning, the day before the wedding, I smudged myself, set my intentions and visualized exactly how I wanted to feel the next couple of days. I asked both my angel mom and my angel dad to be there with me and to help guide me through this happy but emotional weekend. I was not nervous, I felt happy and centered and FINALLY excited for this beautiful celebration. Now I only had to worry about how to keep the tears away, as I cry at every wedding (and pretty much every other event). I was certain this would be no different, perhaps worse. It was my son’s wedding after all.
The wedding venue was at the Inn at Newfound Lake, in Bristol NH. Saturday morning, my son asked me to meet him down on the dock and give my input on his vows. As we stood there, looking out over the lake and the beautiful fall foliage, he said to me, “First, I want to thank you for being the best mom anyone could have. I love you. And second, I want to thank you for the gift of written words. I was able to write my vows because of you.” And then he read his beautiful, heartfelt words to me. Oh boy, here come the tears. Really? How was I going to get through this day without crying my eyes out?
But get through it I did. Without shedding a tear. Only smiles. He escorted me down the aisle to my seat and I smiled. I watched them read their vows to each other and I smiled. Throughout the ceremony and the reception, including the mother/son dance, I smiled. I was on such a high, nothing could touch me. It was, literally, the best day ever.
Wishing many years of love and happiness to Christopher and Alyssa, my son and daughter-in-law.
Much love to my angel mom for telling me to hold my head high. xo
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